Need you most

You aren’t there when I needed you the most

I’m drowning in my fears
I feel blackness consuming my heart
My relentless thoughts are rambling around

I’m tired
Of writing stupid joke everytime i got hurt

I’m tired
Of waiting to hear your voice to cheer me up everytime I defeated

I’m tired
Of traveling alone and hopeless

I’m trying to end this piece as poetic as possible, but I couldn’t.
Truth be told I’m a wreck